today

It was a crazy morning (in real life and in my head)... 
went walking with Blair (that was the good part),
but Lily woke up with a red, inflamed, raw looking chin (ugh, it just hurts my spirit!),
then while I am showering, Peter decided to sneak a muffin (that we made yesterday) and leave a trail of crumbs thruout the entire house!  UGH.  No time to clean it up.
We leave late for Peter's audiology appt after rushing, rushing to all get ready, make 2 wrong turns near the school (into a park next door and into the school bus driveway) so arrive late too.
When I go into the "booth" to sit with Peter, Lily cries like crazy.  I leave the booth and Lily continues to cry b/c she doesn't understand why Peter is still in there (which IS sweet that she cares, but its just so frustrating for "us" to not be able to "behave" as the professionals who are helping us would like for us to... i.e., crying child that I have to help instead of being in the booth with Peter like they'd like me to be & we are not being quiet like we are supposed to be)... not loving 18-24 mos.  GOOD NEWS is that Peter's hearing is PERFECT!  I am thankful... had been praying, praying on the way over for God to allow me to submit to whatever His will is for Peter's life, despite my craziness. I am sure He would do that but I thank Him for perfect hearing.  (I'd assumed it was normal but you know that you never really know.)  Thankfully, the lady who tested was patient with us.  I can never thank others enough for that!  I promptly call Mike and leave him a message that Peter's hearing is great and I am getting a babysitter (for Lily)!  Hopefully, my last eval/therapy appt with both of them.  Its just not do-able.  Then outside, its like 20 degrees and the stroller won't close (there's stickiness in the lever-thingy from juice a while ago)... I almost decide to leave it in the parking lot.  I just felt so worked up.  Emily had to bear the brunt of it as she happened to call after we got home.  I wish I was more patient.  God help me.  
Thankfully, this afternoon has been better.  I've spent about 2 hours painting (the dining room, yay!)... now that I'm a little in, I can see progress, its not the frustrating initial feeling of thisisgoingtotakeforever!  Painting is nice b/c its just so mindless & the time to myself has given me the chance to regain my composure.  Thank you Lord!